Screamin about Silence

I thought that title was amusing!! I don't know if I ever get to truly have silence. With my family, the phone, the TV, the radio in the car, people out in public, and if I am completely alone then I have self talk in my head. Thinking about all the stuff I need to do, worrying about one thing or another. I always have some kind of noise going on. Even when I sleep I have dreams. So really when is there complete silence. I don't know if I would even like too much silence. I'm not one of those people who need people around all the time and I don't think I need total silence either. In fact I really don't like to be around lots of people especially when I'm at in my comfort zone like being at home. So I don't know if silence is something I really need. There are some people who go out in the middle of no where to try to find something that they may call silence, but I don't think it's a destination. I think if you really want silence, I don't think that's what your really looking for. I think it's more like peace that's what people seek when they think it's silence they need. I think we can find forms of peace anywhere, in the middle of a mall on Christmas Eve, even. I believe we have to learn how to feel peace. It's not easy, but it's simple to learn. And it's different for each person. I am still learning, but I am finding  glimpses of it. It's a content feeling and I finally have it after many years of feeling like something was wrong, like I was never doing what I was suppose to do. And It can't be forced or fake. I believe it truly hit me when I truly realized that GOD  was there. I always have had GOD in my life and in my head, but when I had that 2 foot drop of GOD being in my head to GOD being in my heart is when I could really feel content. So that's my SCREAM for the day!! Thank you for listening....  

Screamin about Expectations

Do we have unreal expectations on people in our lives or even on ourselves? Do we ask too much from other people or should we even have some kind of expectations with people in our lives? Should we not expect anything from anybody? I don't know the answers to any of these questions, but I know that when I have people in my life I do expect something from them or I wouldn't want them in my life. But to expect anything from some else is that too much to ask for. Is that a set up for hurt feelings? I can't let people around me act anyway they want can I? I have to have some boundaries and over the years I've had to learn what those boundaries are. It's been a lot of hard learning experiences to learn what I need from people. I've had to let people go out of my life because we couldn't agree that my boundaries mattered. But what about family we usually can't just let them go. How do we honor our own expectations and let them be them? And how do we know the difference between someone's actions being part of their personality or just some bad act that they do without thinking. And if someone acts completely unacceptable to you and they happen to be family members how do you draw a line? These are questions that have come up at different times in my life and it has always been difficult to deal with. Usually it comes down to a confortation with the other person and I hate confortation. I guess each person has a different answer to the question of expectation of others. I know some people who allow anybody to walk all over them and never say a thing about it. And then there's those whose expectations are so high that nobody ever could live up to them. Then there's the reason why we have expectations. Is it because we want people to like us or is it because we don't want to let people get close so we build up a wall that no one can get thru.This is a subject that really can't be answered, especially in one blog. I'm sure I'll come back to this subject in other blogs. Maybe in the comments section you can leave a comment on how you feel about expectations, but I'm not putting any expectations on you!!😃 So today I'm screaming out, WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME??!! Thank you for listening.....

What's making me scream today

This week has been a tough week not only for me but for some of my family members. My mother called me early on in the week to inform me that my sister has gone off the deep end. We have a family business and my sister has been running it. And basically she has ran it into the ground. I don't really want to get into details but she's really done a number on the business and the trust we have for her. There has been a feeling like things weren't right with her but nobody thought she could ruin the business over it. I don't know what exactly to say to my mother, she's very hurt and feels responsible because she'd didn't step in earlier. I just find myself very angry at how selfish my sister is. She's always been a self centered type person but I never knew she could be so outright mean with her selfishness. Especially to my mother they have always been close. So anyways this is going to be an ongoing situation. But today I want to scream out WHY ARE SUCH SELFISH BRAT???

Thank you for listening.....

A beautiful quote we should all remember

The Beginning

So I'm starting off by saying regardless of how the title of my blog sounds this isn't sexual type site. The only screaming this Mimi is interested in doing is the screaming of lifes injustices,unfairness,cruelty to both animals and humans, and outright everyday indifference to mankind's suffering. I don't want this to be a me on my soapbox kinda blog. I want to have real honest discussion on not just the problems, but on the solutions. So with all of this being said, My name is Mimi and I'm ready to SCREAM!!! Feel free to scream back......